Sunday, April 22, 2007

Just checking in....

I don't have any particularly stirring musings to post today, but just wanted to check in, for the discipline if nothing else.

We've had a blast of absolutely gorgeous weather here in Chicago since Friday with temps in the upper 70s and clear sunny skies. I spent a good deal of yesterday manufacturing vitamin D in my skin!

I had my first official training run for the marathon yesterday--just 3 easy miles--but it felt good to re-establish the weekend rituals that marathon training imposes on me: healthy dinner Friday night, early to bed, early to rise Saturday morning, a good run, then a delightfully low-key, yet productive day that begins with an earned sense of self-satisfaction.

Since Tuesday I've had a great CRON week. My averages for the week are good, but not perfect: 93 calories/day over target, and short on protein and Vitamin K, but all other averages are well within acceptable (to me) parameters. This includes a bit of a splurge last night: I attended at a party where I a) drank NO alcohol; and b) nibbled very modestly on the delicious snacks, then dutifully recorded them all in CRON-O-Meter this a.m. The results weren't as bad as I'd expected.

Friday was so beautiful that I walked all the way to work--five miles. Then I did the 3-mile run on Saturday. Everything felt great! But then last night I got soooo hungry. I ate well, but it was a wakeup call: I know from experience that there is no way I will be able to function at my current target calorie level on Saturdays, particularly when my training runs start creeping up above the 5-6 mile mark. Endurance exercisers might recognize what I mean when I say there are times when you experience a deep-down-full-body-hunger that will not be denied. It's a kind of hunger most Americans rarely if ever experience, and it turns food into a kind of orgasmic magical elixir.

The fact is that burning calories at the rate one does in training necessitates the consumption of more fuel, and significant post-run refueling as well. It's just a simple fact I'll need to accept even as it conflicts with the very basic foundation of CRON. But it's a nice excuse to eat more--whoopee! And it's only for 6 months, while CRON is (theoretically) forever. We'll see!

That is all for now. I'll try to post something a bit more interesting in the coming week.

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

An e-mail to a friend

I received an announcement today that a friend has decided to do the Paris-Brest-Paris Randonnée this August.

For the uninitiated, this is a 745 mile bike ride in 90 hours with NO support. It's an exercise in self-sufficiency and personal commitment.

I found myself so cheered by his news that I composed a reply that, after I sent it, I realized would be perfect for my blog. It follows at the end of this post.

In addition to getting back to CRON (which I've finally been doing lately), I'm beginning training this weekend for the October marathon here in Chicago. Lengthening my life through calorie-restriction, then shortening it again through ridiculous endurance-running. I've definitely got myself a confused little masochistic streak.

And gentle readers (if any remain, given my hiatus), go ahead and note my falling off the CRON wagon, but then recall what you read right here a couple of months ago:

Quit attempts should be thought of like practice sessions in learning a new skill—at some point one hopes to “get it right,” but one should not put undue hope on any single given quit attempt, and take solace in knowing the probability of success increases with each try.

Indeed. I'm living for that probability right this very second.

Okay, so on to my message to my inspirational cycling friend:


I'm extremely delighted by this pleasant news. Allow me to make it all about me for a moment.

In 1999, as I was hatching my plans to move from DC to Chicago (and my plans were only that: to move here; I had no plans beyond my arrival), I decided to run the Marine Corps Marathon.

I was 29 years old, I'd never been a runner (or an athlete of ANY kind), and I was then--as I am again--about 40 lbs overweight. I also have some mild foot problems that require special running shoes, but thankfully that was an easily solved challenge.

They call my running cohort "Clydesdale." I wasn't terribly amused by that, but then again, Clydesdales are very sturdy, handsome horses, and they haul beer around, so what's not to like?

The point is that as I was contemplating major life changes, and I needed a powerful shot of confidence, proof that I could muster a bit of some weird thing called "discipline," and actually finish a long-term, hard project before I packed up the truck and headed west. I conjured up the idea that in running the marathon at the end of my time in DC, I wasn't running away from my old life, but running towards my new one.

I trained for six months, and then I ran (and sometimes hobbled) that race, crossing the finish line barely before they closed the event. Then I came to Chicago and staggered around on unsteady legs for several weeks. I was wrecked physically, but high as a kite emotionally.

It was easily in my top three majorly awesome life-changing experiences (even above my first CCM) [Author's Note: CCM is "Chicago Critical Mass"]. That sounds corny, but I'm a sentimental guy, and I was as self-satisfied as I could be. I also didn't feel too badly about raising nearly $2000 for AIDS (it was a fund-raising program), though that wasn't honestly why I did it. I did it for me.

Here I am at 36, fat again, getting ready to finish school and start my interim-career (yep, working for you-know-who), and finally making some serious and steady progress on the novel I've been belaboring for years (that's my REAL career). I'm at another crossroads, another moment when my whole life is gonna change around again. Everything's good--no everything's GREAT, but...I need a serious kick-start to push me out of the gate. Not to mix metaphors.

So, coincidentally I've decided to train for and run another marathon, and my training begins soon. Of course, what you are doing requires a much greater level of commitment and self-sufficiency than doing a marathon, but I bet the results will be similar in some ways.

While I don't really know what your reasons are (or mine for that matter), I bet there's at least a bit of some of the following: Maybe we are having pre-midlife-crises? Maybe we want our youthful bodies back, and all the fun and health and even MORE fun that promises. Maybe we're hoping to impress others (at least a little). Maybe we're bored, or curious. Maybe we're in pain (physical, psychological, spiritual), and more pain seems like it might be curative, like some bizarre metaphysical homeopathy. Personally, I sometimes wonder if I'm looking for ways to dig the knife in a little deeper and give it a twist--after all, it can't feel worse than what I've been doing to myself over the last six years, with all my addictions and self-destructive impulses. It's like a bleeding, a cleansing ritual. Maybe you just wanna see France by bike, and I wanna see the backsides of 44,999 other runners.

Whatever the reasons, I promise you will enjoy what happens to your body along the way (provided you're careful to avoid injuries--and injuries are NOT inevitable but preventable, so do take care).

But the big surprise to me was realizing that these things train our minds as much as, no--more than--our bodies. Endurance sports require, to my mind, a great deal of mental discipline that is much more difficult than meeting the physical demands we place on ourselves. Our bodies are just the vehicles, and they are very adaptive and malleable ones, at that. Our minds are where resistance is located. That's where the real workout is. Enjoy this trip--it's mind-blowing. You'll be a whole new T.C. when this is over. (Not that there's anything wrong with the old one.)

I'm really excited for you, and I'll read your blog faithfully. (Actually, I read anything you write. I dig your "voice.") So make sure you actually post to it.

And thanks for the shot of inspiration on this depressingly gray, damp, April (the cruellest month) day. My conviction was wavering today, but now I'm fired up again!